I'm not gone, I just took a hiatus. I've been updating Twitter and Tumblr (and facebook, ick), but only really in fairly short bursts-- things I can mostly passively consume from my phone, and update via more or less text message. It's like... it's like it's selfish to spend the hours I used to spend a week in introspection and journaling, and yet, somehow, it doesn't count if I spend those same hours mindlessly hitting refresh and looking at the sparkly cat gifs people post.
Like it's not the hours that matter, it's the self-absorption? I dunno.
I am doing well overall-- spending a year on antidepressants made me 30 pounds heavier but less self-hating. But then I ran out of meds, and tapered off, and haven't bothered going back on. The depression is back as a slight lack of motivation and generous helping of crankiness, but since I don't hate myself, I'm sort of okay with that. Unfortunately the 30 pounds is here to stay, however. Oh well. It's ironically easier to buy bras because my back size went up to a 38, which is where most large-cup bras start.
I'm not done with LJ, it's just hard to look back and see what it was compared to what it is. I just used to do a lot more... everything. Hm.
I'm probably going to post a bunch of semi-non-fiction essays I put on Tumblr here, because Tumblr as it turns out doesn't actually archive tags longer than 30 days, which means if I want to read the series as a series, I have to go back through the entirety of my blog on there and manually find the ones that are relevant. Why do they bother with tags? Oh right, it's supposed to just be ephemera. I don't really get it, still... but whatever. The Tumblr staff doesn't get it either; it's hilarious to see their posts and how radically they differ from how people actually use the site. Ditto for Instagram... oh right, I'm on Instagram too, though rarely, and always cross posted. Shit I don't even know how to link to myself... I only have it on my phone. Whoops.
I'd love to use LJ as a place to aggregate and archive all this stuff but I just don't know how. I have auto-copying app things set up for both Twitter and Tumblr but neither one works. I don't know what to do beyond that; I'm just not that committed to it I guess. Eh well!
Anyhow. Brace y'selves, as in my post-Pennsic depression, I'm obsessively editing and recompiling the only thing approaching proper creative writing I've done lately (oh, I'm still picking away at the novels, but a thousand words here and a hundred words there and six hours of rereading old stuff and wishing I still wrote like that barely counts). So you're about to get the whole K Stories series, pretty much all at once. Because it's my only coherent output, as of late. I'll start with an introductory post.